decisions

Posted on Oct. 6, 2006 at 13:47 - Post Comment

“Sometimes you make the right decision, sometimes you make the decision right.”

 

- i made a decision, and i am sure it is the right one. i dont want to torture myself with all this. it is really to painful to bear. besides all thisstress causes physical pains and i was told by the doctor that if i dont stop doing it to myself i might end up in the hospital again which is something i really dont want to happen :)

i had a break down yesterday, had been crying for an hour non-stop and even after that i wasnt sure i cried all te pain out. i dont deserve this, do i? nobody does... i will not be able to go through something like that again, not in this life and not with him.. i want to be happy and it is impossible while i am thinking about the entire situation. i might as well finish writing blogs on theblogs.net because everything here reminds so much of him. i want completely  get rid of this feeling that is eating me from inside. and may be it will be the wrong decision and i am making a mistake but it is how i feel now - it is better for me so, i believe this truly... i changed myself or better to say he changed me - i guess it is better so because we need some change in our life... i cant say i learned a lot from this experience - just i again lost something so importand and will need time to get it back :)

i know i will be alright, i know he will be alright. i wish he will be happy because from all people on this planet he deserves happiness may be more than others.

with so much love in his heart...

 

I understand...

Posted by abhay on Oct. 6, 2006 at 21:04-Link

I can very well understand all the pains you have gone through during this unfortunate event. :( I pray to God that he may never ever puts you in such a situation again.

And please dont cry; atleast for the sake of me!

Have a wonderful day, Lena!