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Mean GirlHere is the deal...a few things have happened over the last few days. I can't say they are all good things but I can say they are things. Will confessed to me that he likes me more than a friend. *~sigh~* He then went on to tell me that he could see himself with me. This is huge because I am attracted to Will. But why would I start something with his best friend(Steve)? Like what is wrong with me? But at the same time I really like Steve...I go back and forth in my head and I feel like the only reason I am not with Steve right now is because it is too soon be in another relationship. I am not ready. But I could totally see myself with him. I don't know what it is. I don't feel insecure and I don't really worry about much. I don't feel any of the same things as I did with Benny. It's kind of weird. I have felt a little stressed ALREADY and I don't want that. I feel greedy because I want Steve and at the same time I kind of like.......Will. I know, I know its bad. I feel like a horrible person. But originally I liked Will and Steve really showed me now interest...I felt like Will kind of embarased me and now I find out that none of guys would give him my number and he really wanted to start things with me but couldn't. That to me sounds like an excuse and it's weird because I get a player vibe from Will. I told him that because I am so blunt...he said that no girl has ever said that to him before. He dates a lot of younger girls. He is a bit immature. Kind of quiet which I hate....but then why?? Why do I feel something for him?? Am I nuts? I think so. I just want to enjoy Steve...why do we have to be boyfriend and girlfriend. Because thats what his wants. I don't think he has ever met a girl like me. We are like the same person...we love to party...have a good time and just chill and be ourselves. I do get nervous around him and feel the butterflies sometimes. He wants to travel...loves holidays...has a huge family. I don't know it just seems like he is the right guy for me. I am not going to stress about it...I hope everything works out for me. Keep your fingers cross.11:53 AM - Apr. 25, 2006 - post comment
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